Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Fragile

I went to bed feeling very fragile last night. I had taken Weston visiting teaching with me yesterday and while we were out, I received a message from my mom that my Grandpa was being transported to the hospital. He has been sick lately and things weren't going so well last night. So, after I got the message, Weston and I headed to the hospital to meet my parents. We stayed for a little bit but there wasn't much we could do and I needed to get home to feed Ivan.
After the kids were settled in bed and I was feeding Ivan, I started feeling very fragile. I reminded myself that I need to be patient with life and that the Lord knows exactly who I am and what I need.
While I was talking to myself...the song 'Hallelujah' came to my mind. I first heard this song during the opening ceremonies of the Olympics while I was getting the epidural and waiting for Ivan to arrive. It was no secret that I was super nervous about the epidural and when this song came on it brought me so much peace. I don't really understand the lyrics, they're a little out there for me, but the chorus is beautiful and very calming.
So last night, as I was feeling so fragile, this song came to mind again and brought that same peace. I realized even more so how much the Lord loves me. And that when you are feeling fragile there is no better place to be than in his hands.
My Grandpa passed away early this morning. He is in the hands of the Lord and with my sweet Grandma. I am so happy for him.

6 comments:

Melissa said...

There's a HUGE party going on RIGHT NOW for your Grandpa and he's having a blast.
I'm glad you're happy for him.
Sometimes death is a sweet relief.
I hope those of you still here on earth will be alright.
Love you.

Ann-Marie said...

I like this song too. Also it's on Shrek!

Dustin and Nicole said...

I hope you are doing alright, but isn't it great to know that, yes, he is in a better place. What comfort that brings!

Jay and Camille said...

Love you Lacey.

Stephanie said...

That's weird, I wrote something before, but apparently it didn't pop up. I'm happy you've had some peace, but I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandpa. I hope you and your family are all doing well. We love you!

Yearsley couple said...

You are so right. I glad that you feel that peace and hope during this time in your life. Thank you for sharing this in your post. I wish I could give you a big hug, but instead I will send my prayers up for you. Thank you for sharing your post. It has helped me in my life too!